On Christmas morning I woke up without finding L. Sleigh under my tree. Am I angry? No, not anymore. I'm disappointed however. Will I stop waiting for her? No, I'll continue to sit up on Christmas Eve awaiting the arrival of Santa Claus so I can receive the gift of my roots. But as 2010 draws to an end, I will move on to bigger and better things beside waiting for a mother who doesn't know I exist or refuses to acknowledge me. L. Sleigh will not be who I think about all year long. I will not focus on her.
Instead in 2011 I will meet self imposed deadlines to complete manuscripts I've started. I will lose the same ten to fifteen pounds I've lost and gained several times before. I will make better decisions than I have in the past. I will take better care of my health. I will drink water. I will not commit myself to things I don't want to do. I will be able to say no if it's necessary. I will continue to help others but I will be more focused on Rosa. I won't apologize for things I'm not sorry for. I will stand up for myself when people try to take advantage of my kindness. In other words I'm going to do me. I'm going to find out what God desires from me and walk into my destiny.
So I'm warning everyone now...in 2011, I will be a different person! I'm getting it together for 2011!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!